11pm

11pm... the time the library closes. I will be here until then or when i complete my research paper. Alzheimer's disease is my topic; for those that don't know is when a person has a lost of memory short to long term as they age.

ive been here since about 1pm...its now 2.37

alzheimer's is both a blessing and a curse in a abstract way.
a blessing because one forgets the pain one has endured throughout their lifetime; allowing them to live care free without boundaries to a certain extent.
a curse because one may forget the people they love and care for and will feel alone... maybe.

currently playing:when the money goes- fabolous & jayz

for some reason this song always makes me think of my father.

i cant focus on this paper..im on twitter, face book, changing up my blog, playing games on my phone. i know what to write about just don't know where to start, or what to use as a hook.

3.01 online shopping

something i love about these boots




4pm got alot more research done. this should make the process easier.

now playing- alienated- keri hilson; makes me think of an old friend ... hmm think i miss yu

"dont know how it happned/ kinda like just faded away"

back to my room to nap......

makes me feel a way...

up...its like 730

cherish the day - sade
unthinkable - alica keys
little bit - lykke li
take off your cool- andre 3000
to zion - lauryn hill
secret - maroon 5
say yu will- kanye west
Prescilla - bat for lashes

was so into my itunes forgot about my post....11.07 am

off to breakfast & then libary.

sleep when im dead i guess...

was gone till december

Paris,Tokyo-Lupe Fiasco

Deff forgot about this blog tho... lol

Then we can land in the motherland and camel back across the desert land

Egypt is on my togotolist for international places....feels good to be out of america,yu shuld try it sometimes
.......

right now I'm up watching a movie with my roomie. Life is good...could be better n could be worse but I'm content. Can't wait till winter break to be with family & friends.

I wanted to post some pics but im on my phone ( the Droid is the best phone evaaa) and the site is not allowing me to.

random thoughts- Greece,beaches,goyard,sunshine,jamaica, home,you,urban,aunts,roses,verano and the lovely bones.


Goodnight in a few ...goodmorning to most

...a diamond is just a piece of coal that did well under pressure.....

just for the hell of it

so ive been busy. i know i just got here, but its kinda true lol

hammer time

i was gettin hammed all day lol wtff this seems unreall lol... im never gunna tlk about this day again






thaas for the ego smh

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he got itttt

yo i just love this guy hes a clown lol..i think he was comin at ne-yo big ass head too...lol...check out how he pic up the money when shorty thro it lol...

High School Days

high school days, well the least days was a overall great experince. I still remeber my 1st day of hs...and for it to be over...no words to express the emotions i feel. im going to miss that school; it was my zone where i knew what shit was goin down. Im attending Old Westbury in the fall. i think im more excited about the fact im getting out this house than getting a higher education.


but fda...i have a plethora of memories about that school, about the people, about the things that did & didnt happen. i recall all nighter papers, roaming the halls, sneaking outta school, the girls, the drama, the boys, flow lol, love n more. Im happy for everyone thats been in my life and if you apart of it now consider it a blessing to us both. to those that never liked me blow me lol and to those that love me, "i got u, i got us" [drizzy] To my classmates 09^..

as we grow older remeber
the sky is the only limit
we must learn from our mistakes
and be humble with our accomplishments
dont forget the people in your past
for they molded you into the person you are today
to all i wish much prosperity and words of encouragement
and if you ever fall
get right back up stronger than before

we did it yall lol 09z princezz troi! ima miss yall crzy asses lol

Cassiie

Nigga tried to violate her....smh i still fuck with her. And her new song hot...
CASSIE & RED CAFE INTERVIEW

The Afflicted Yard

your favorite photographer's ( me lol) favorite photographer

I believe his name is Peter Dean Richards... and i love his work. His photos tell stories, raise questions and stimulate the mind. Below are a few of my favorite pics... i hope you enjoy them as much as i did.

All of these photos are property of the Afflicted Yard and Mr.Richards says "STEAL THEM WITHOUT MY PERMISSION AND NOT ONLY WILL YOU GET SHITTY SLICED-UP LO-RES JPEGS BUT TO FIND YOU AND KILL YOU :: IF YOU WANT ANY OF THESE IMAGES, E-MAIL ME AT MAIL@AFFLICTEDYARD.COM AND MAYBE I WILL SELL YOU THE 300DPI VERSIONS" "

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"We are split long colour lines, class lines, cultural lines, and in some cases, will divide from others if they don't keep their body odour from becoming offensive."

its my time- fabolous

fine ass fab....

nocturnal nympho

I am nocturnal, but I just put nympho cuz it sounded good lol.

I can't remember his facial features.
But I remeber his eyes,and the emotions that came over me when I looked into them.
He barely said anything,but forsome reason I recall numerous conversations
Laughs & smiles. No frowns.maybe cries, if so from passion.
Many awkward silences. silences that screamed something needed to me said or done.
silences that made me feel comfortable.
Calm. Relaxed.carefree.happy.bliss.
In this anxious.stressed,anal and angry world.

If only time could rewind, or fastfoward.
But we learn from out mistakes so the lessons learned day to day are nessasary.

love his big ego

" Well, you got the key to my heart,But you ain't gonna need it, I'd rather you open up my body
And show me secrets, you didn't know was inside,No need for me to lie"

let that speak for me....

anyways....i sweated my hair out tryna learn this shit lol... Bey's a fuckin beast.

diddy's goodies

" now stop acting like you never seen a titty before" Cassie

lol im not really suprised...she's been beggin for attention, esp with that haircut. i still fucks with her lol

love the nipple ring tho...

Broken

Ugh...yea...here's a freeewrite done while listening to music.

Some things are meant to be broken.
Some things are to be secrets, that few know & many think they do.
Some things are meant to be forgotten.
Some things can only be memories and can never be repeted.
Some fear the future,while others run from their past.
Many have dreams that will never come true,
While others have living nightmares.
The best are subtle,keen and wary.careful with how they act & what they say.
And the rest are emotional & outspoken & usally stress over any-and-everything.

I want to break more.
I want to make more.
I want to know more & wonder less.
I want to remeber all.
I dont want to relive; I'd rather create.
I dont want to dream, I want to live it; nightmares & all.

Photograhpy

Tori

Darker is much betterrrrrrr

Kelis <3 Nas

i wonder what she's gunna name the baby...

ayo.....

this is madness... lmao...she a REAL FJ

smh

i just think he's the ultimate cornball....he only get a pass cuz he lightskinned lol. his career over he pulled a ll...only lady fans

lol

i cant even front...lol i like it...ima gucci mane fan lol 

and sod is not popping.....nigga just got a grill lol chill daddy

Bats for Lashes

rihanna phase is over lol.. now im all about Natasha Khan... love her style and her music.....

=]

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there's something i lovee about tattoos..always been that way. I still have yet to get mines...but i love Travis McCoys's...he's a wierd dude lol but thats cool... normal people kinda bore me.. one thing ive realized is that i wont regret a tattoo,it will be a reflection of how i was at that time period in my life & what i loved and who i was surounded by. tattoos are stories, and when i see one i like me & the person have a great conversation about it...gimmie till cannibus cup lol ima get my first one...

Vacation

3 more days & I'm gone!

Spring Break.

Peru to be exact.

Very anxious to go away & so much has been on my mind.

This should be fun. Last year I went to Las Vegas. It was interesting. I had a great time, but... yeah.

This time last year was a breeze..... i can still remember alot of things. i kinda miss the old days. ima miss high school, it was a bittersweet experience esp last year. Junior year: my highest highs and lowest lows.

Next year spring break im hoping for Greece. It is such a beautiful place!! Over the summer I saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 and they shot some scenes in Greece. It was soo beautiful.

the picture above is of Machu Pichu, one of the wonders of the world, google it. I am going to visit and i am very excited. By 25 I hope to see all 7,but I must go to Greece, Amsterdam and Hawaii before i turn 21.

Road Trip summer 09?

LA 18th birthday?

Miami New Years 09?

Vegas When Im 21? lol

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 heres some of my workkkk.. the 1srt is me lol, 2nd my friends hand, 3rd,4th and 5th is wreckin crew, 6th  is taahir,7th is takik and the last is my love kelsie...enjoy...BETTER ones are to come soon =]
 * click the pic to see it better!

Dicscovey Channel WRecking Edition

this is not meant to offend anyone...lol

btw i knooo ive been gone for a min..labtop broke, i been mad busy and i have a new camera...ill put pics up soon... ummm... yea...holla lol

so its 3:43 am and i am sitting here drinking herbal tea. I am supposed to be working on an ap stat project but i dont want to so i wrote a poem.
I was listening to Amnesia by Cherish, icebox by omarion and hollywood divorce by outkast...mind you my ipod was on shuffle...but this is what i wrote. it does but doesnt make sense in a wierd way.... everything here is true and relfects my feelings about a few people...you might know who you are....if you truly exist

Confused

I can't go left or right
Wish I could go back but can only go foward
Because the past is a lesson learned
And the hardknocklife is never out of session
Every scar tear smile and frown has built my character
Into the person you know me as today
But theres a part of me wants amnesia
A part of me that doesn't want to remeber the pain and the aches
The late nights and lost thoughts
The broken dreams and real nightmares

Amnesia to forget the bad, and make the good a distant daydream
Amnesia to forget your existence
To forget your touch
Your smile
You

Amnesia to melt away the iceboxx that replaced my heart
Amnesia to warm my soul
To revive my heart
To let you in
To know you
To want you
To need you
To love you
to love

Again

Some say, history is the best teacher& if you don't remeber your past
You'll repeat it in the future
And a part of me would like to rewind
To go back to my favorite part
And press play
And relive the moment

But time pushes me foward
Farther and farther away from you
Causing me to forget the good
And still have the cracks in my heart remain from the bad deeds done

Lowering the heat, to make this the coldest winter
And my heart colder
And my attitude nastier
And my pride harder to swallow
Making me lonier
And confused
With no one to know what I'm talking about

except you

And if you don't get it
Don't ever be afraid to ask
Or to express
To show
Or tell

How you feel

im still here because we both know its not over

im in lovee

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

as soon as i saw....

i just felt the urge, my thought could only focus on...

being inside omg...i thought i was gunna ooo on myself lol

maybe not love then....just lust

but its somthing i want... and will get in time







i really love that car... it looks like a mix of lambogini, beemer & mercedes

my prom date might have to rent this out for prom nite lol

my shitttttt

I was listenting to houstatlantavegas by drake

He lives in a mindset that I can never move to

Until I find myself I can never have you

But I had you, by myside

Everytime you touched me I felt butterflies

In the gut of my stomach

I can tell you want it

When you look me in the eyes

Or when you look my way

And I hate to admit it I feel the same way

But it's over and that was in the past

And you were not my first and will not be my last

And maybe "us" will never be together

But that's okay cuz I can daydream,

about the places we never been and the things we never seen

Recently Downloaded

my laptop finally works, so the first thing i did after aiming bloging and facebooking was download music..

Well this is what I recommend of what i got

so far so gone [ mixtape] by drake
well isnt this akward [ mixtape] charles hamilton
kicks, video games, movies & chicks [ mixtape] Curren$y

all three can be found out at livemixtapes.com

if you seek amy [ repeat it till you get the hidden message lol] britney spears
where the money goes- jay z
turn it up- jim jones
alienated- keri hilson [ love this song]
every girl- drake
bang bang- young jeezy

those you can get from lime wire or w/e

St. Valentine's Day

Valentines Day originated in Rome about 496. It was created to be a feast day before the Roman Festival of Lupercallia (Feb. 15) which was a fertility festival. After reading that Valentines Day finally made sense. Valentines Day was created for men to butter up and make their boo feel all special so they could smash all crazy the next day lmao.

For the past two years when I woke up on Valentines Day the bridge for the song Valentines Day by Andre 3000 played in my head lol. This year I did'nt celebrate Valentines Day, although I had a few i just was'nt in the mood to be out. Honestly I beleive if you really like someone you wouldnt make them your valentine, thats just a one time thing.

America celebrates Valentines to produce revenue. SOOO much money is spent on Valentines Day. Restaurants,tellys,hair salons,nail salons,stores,jewelry stores, lingerie stores,flowershops, barbershops & on and on...just think about it... and honestly I would throw out a gift someone gave me on Valentines day lol. if you really liked me you'd get me a gift whenever. the typical gift consists of flowers,chocolate and cards; flowers die , i dont like chocolate and get thrown away. Give me somthing thats meaningful, take me to a special place, anything but the typical ;-]I dont even ask for much lol


Here's the sims version of andre 3000 video....btw when the hell is he dropping a new album, his last one [the love below] was a classic, i havent taken it out my stereo for a year deadass that shit real

Smh

The Grammys ain't shit

First rihanna ass had to get into a boxing match with cbreezy, like wtf bitch u let him hit u tht nigga is sum fake yack chubby nigga he don't even move that fast & you from the islands.. Last time I checked carribean chicks got it in cough Hollywood cough lol
And neyo lost best male performance =[
Swagger like us was mean... My moms thought my tv broke lol it coulda been better but it was cool
And then lil Wayne won rap album of the year. If I was at the grammys I woulda decked someone deadass carter 3 is not better than paper trail idcc don't get me wrong I been a Wayne fan, but cmonnnn lupe should won before Wayne! And lyrical content paper trail is reallll, ti has really grown as an artist and I respect him slot for that. Creativity Wayne gets that, he did sum wierd new ish on his tracks.. Butcomeonnnn
By juding them on the cover u kno tip album better! The album art is 3-d someone actually took scraps of paper to make that shit.... Paper trail.. Get it dummies...[ ima post the album art wen I get a chance] I'm like mad, not even cuz I lost money, that's nothing lol but all these award shows lately been bullshitttttt..... Step it up ppl gosh... I'm highly upset and dissapointed, paper trail best rap album of 2008 idc we can fight if u feel some type of wayyy

Prom Queen

first and foremost lil wayne did not learn how to play the guitar just for that song im tierd of hearing that! but wayne is back..& i like it alot! kinda feel like he channeling me in the song ...smh..lol... wayne doin his thing tho, dont front..listen to the lyrics, i had to hear it like 10 times before i could really listen

Freakk jointt

who knew lil cassie was such a fj..i saw it in her...the video intresting...od low budget, this is deff before they did the offical one tho..she is deff gorgeous tho big up to dude in the video lol

r.i.p. Aaliyah

yo if she was still alive the r&b game would not be like it is now...she was one singer who was alwaysss on point...for some reason the start of this video remind me of distubia...but back to aaliyah..the crazy thing about her death is that she didnt even want to get on that plane, she wanted to get on the plane with the rest of her crew or sum ish like that, but damn...she was badddd and she had flow..yall kno jay was on that right

never ever

ciara...she my girl...i liked her since goodies..she jsut be on some other ish...but the video okya..her makeup aint lookin too good & her hair..she was workin it tho lol....monica in it..wonder when she droppin her next album...the song is hot tho. she just need to step her game up, new song writers or sumthin, she seem off.

& the winner is.....

bey with her 5 grammys in one night!

So I was looking at the Grammy Nominees.... Not too shabby, but some winners are a dead giveaway...but here's what I think

• Best rap album- paper trail by ti, the carter 3 was okay, I didn't even buy it tho, I just downloaded it. I actually purchased paper trail, and the album before that [ I lent it to someone soon as I got it & they lost it lol] ti had some bangers tho... porno star, swing ya rag, you ain't missing nothin, live your life, dead & gone,whatever you like... All that good ishh. & I can't even name a song where he degrades women, I'm sure one exists, but his lyrics aren't based on sexually explict actions that some women choose to participate in. My money on tip for that category.

• Album of the year- carter 3 by lil Wayne. It wasn't the best rap album but it was a good album. I've been anticipating it since what...07? Yeaa. Sumthin like that,been a Wayne fan. Carter 2 is mean, carter 3 had so much hype about it. Wayne was pumping that release for a minute, and that's what made it so popular in the hip hop industry, and when he came out with lolipop he showed he was ready to takeover. I first heard it 3-14-08 and listened to it the wholeee time I was in vegas. The a milli beat kept ppl hypee my moms even knew the words to that. Mr carter was meann wayne was blackin.. Comfortable was real,I dug itt and that got money was a club anthem for a min. Wayne did his thing... A milli in a week... The nigga deserve the Grammy for that


• record of the year -PAPER PLANES! That's not even a new song... That's from 06 or 07. I been fckn with mia.If she doesn't win she should blow up the Grammys lol. But really she should win that, so many rappers re did it they own way cuz the beat was bannanas, they even samples her for the hook of swagger like us.. Where the raps industrys " best rappers" alll went in. Ti blacked tho.. The song has also been features in manyyy a box office hits, I mean... I never ever seen or heard a song in so many places from bollywood, to Hollywood, to the a..& rich boy blackeddd on the remix... Yea she gotta win that..

best new artist- duffy or jamine sullivan. herd duffy album, i loved it, her music does not relfect her apperance at all,thats what made me intrested in her. i saw her thought she was the next britney...blond haired pop star, but that voice..wow..and her lyrics..real..warwick ave is my shitt....jasmine sulliva seem cool...hated her first songle, 2nd and 3rd is hot. but i bet the jonas brothers goin win...smh..i personally dont really like em

Best pop vocal performances: closer for neyo, i loveddddd that song!! i didt hear his whole album tho, i aint hear too many good things either, but his singles are hot...bleeding love by lenoa lewis for female, shes wassup, i like her music, somthing diff...

best pop collabo- you already kno my money on rihanna... her n marroon for never see your face again... the video was hot song was hot...but 4minutes mightt just take the grammy home for that category...

best rap performace- hassss to be put on... swagger like us..maybe even mr.carter....thats a hard category..but im goin with put of by jeezy n kanye

those are just the categories i really wanna see...anyhin else i dnt rlly care.... hope rihanna win somethin ,maybe sumthin for distubia & kanye..he gotta win somthin!!!

& some moree

the first is my mini me in the car... students at fda...08 graduation... n 09 heads

Photography

some of the fav pics that i have taken.... the first one my friend at prom. 2nd & 3rd at the Brooklyn botanical garden and the last two in vegas at the villa i stayed at... enjoy!

Fefe Dobson

some say rihanna stole her swag...but honestly rihanna does it better

Untitiled

Just got home, today wasn't such a bad day. I saw sum movie with Morris chestnut [darkskin is definetly in lol] and I really liked it. It made me realize three things 1. When you fight for somthing you belive in, it will happen [ somthing I could have learned from a person I once knew] 2. I do want a relationship with someone, I'm ready for it, but I dont need it in my life right now.... It would be nice tho.....3. You make your own destiny, of course somethings are already written[ destined to happen] but if you really want somthing you gotta be a go getta & get it.

And I have the beam.... Lol, if u see the movie you'll get it.

The movie is called not easily broken

by the way...

a new rule bald or long hair = ]

Tash TuCute!

yes yes Tash TuCute [pronounced too-cute]lol is bout to get in the booth. I am very very excited about this because her song is hot. The name for is as of now is " you missin something. Shit is real.the lyrics are based on experinence,opinion and facts. If u feel some type a way when you hear it, I want you to feel free to perosnally SMD. The saga has begun [ evil laughter from a deep male voice] lol

F#(K 2008

my end of the year 2008 was terrible.... Mishap after mishap after mishap after mishap again. Me & my parents bck at it again, got nothing I wanted for Xmas,i lost a total of $75 dollars( whoever found that 50 is happy as hell) butterfly blue closed =[ that made me of sad. I spent sooo much time there, I used to work crazy ass hours like 3pm to 3 am lol I got paid real gooood but I dont really have nothing to prove from it bcuz I spent my money on bullshit lol damn yo I aint worked there since June tho, I still remeber that last day like it was yesterday.. It was a hot ass sat, the sat after prom las year and I was mad tierd lol I had no sleep that week. I memebr stayin breaking night on tues to do a project I worked on weds got home at like 3am n the next day had to wake up madd early to get ready for prom n shit and prom I was exhauseted wen I got home but me shae n kay n jamari stayed up then we wnt to skool in the am n I had to go bac to skool after that then I went to see my brother in the hospital then I went to sum cream meeting lol then to hcz fashion show then I was hanging out with "Harlem ppl" then I ran to kelsie house cuz sum dude followed me for like 4 blocks I got home like 1030 n was on the comp tlkn to ppl =] lol and tori drunkass kept calling everyone lol I aint go to bed till like 2 ( damn aim lol) then I wokeup n had to b at wrk at 12 blah blah I was on the phone with kelZ she was at riverbank and tori she waswandering round Harlem blah blah I left wrk and was on 145 and that day I learned one armed hugs are no bueno lol and I thought I saw tash n it was her she was in the bankkk lol and I dont remebr the rest [ smh lol dont do drugs] but the nxt day I was in bed the wholee day lol damn I have a good memory the summer is always the best winters always the worst lol summer 09 dead put a grin on my face =D bye 08.....09 ive been waiting for you babe ; )

I dead wandered away from the topic lol