so its 3:43 am and i am sitting here drinking herbal tea. I am supposed to be working on an ap stat project but i dont want to so i wrote a poem.
I was listening to Amnesia by Cherish, icebox by omarion and hollywood divorce by outkast...mind you my ipod was on shuffle...but this is what i wrote. it does but doesnt make sense in a wierd way.... everything here is true and relfects my feelings about a few people...you might know who you are....if you truly exist

Confused

I can't go left or right
Wish I could go back but can only go foward
Because the past is a lesson learned
And the hardknocklife is never out of session
Every scar tear smile and frown has built my character
Into the person you know me as today
But theres a part of me wants amnesia
A part of me that doesn't want to remeber the pain and the aches
The late nights and lost thoughts
The broken dreams and real nightmares

Amnesia to forget the bad, and make the good a distant daydream
Amnesia to forget your existence
To forget your touch
Your smile
You

Amnesia to melt away the iceboxx that replaced my heart
Amnesia to warm my soul
To revive my heart
To let you in
To know you
To want you
To need you
To love you
to love

Again

Some say, history is the best teacher& if you don't remeber your past
You'll repeat it in the future
And a part of me would like to rewind
To go back to my favorite part
And press play
And relive the moment

But time pushes me foward
Farther and farther away from you
Causing me to forget the good
And still have the cracks in my heart remain from the bad deeds done

Lowering the heat, to make this the coldest winter
And my heart colder
And my attitude nastier
And my pride harder to swallow
Making me lonier
And confused
With no one to know what I'm talking about

except you

And if you don't get it
Don't ever be afraid to ask
Or to express
To show
Or tell

How you feel

im still here because we both know its not over

im in lovee

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

in love in love in love in love omg im in love

as soon as i saw....

i just felt the urge, my thought could only focus on...

being inside omg...i thought i was gunna ooo on myself lol

maybe not love then....just lust

but its somthing i want... and will get in time







i really love that car... it looks like a mix of lambogini, beemer & mercedes

my prom date might have to rent this out for prom nite lol

my shitttttt

I was listenting to houstatlantavegas by drake

He lives in a mindset that I can never move to

Until I find myself I can never have you

But I had you, by myside

Everytime you touched me I felt butterflies

In the gut of my stomach

I can tell you want it

When you look me in the eyes

Or when you look my way

And I hate to admit it I feel the same way

But it's over and that was in the past

And you were not my first and will not be my last

And maybe "us" will never be together

But that's okay cuz I can daydream,

about the places we never been and the things we never seen

Recently Downloaded

my laptop finally works, so the first thing i did after aiming bloging and facebooking was download music..

Well this is what I recommend of what i got

so far so gone [ mixtape] by drake
well isnt this akward [ mixtape] charles hamilton
kicks, video games, movies & chicks [ mixtape] Curren$y

all three can be found out at livemixtapes.com

if you seek amy [ repeat it till you get the hidden message lol] britney spears
where the money goes- jay z
turn it up- jim jones
alienated- keri hilson [ love this song]
every girl- drake
bang bang- young jeezy

those you can get from lime wire or w/e

St. Valentine's Day

Valentines Day originated in Rome about 496. It was created to be a feast day before the Roman Festival of Lupercallia (Feb. 15) which was a fertility festival. After reading that Valentines Day finally made sense. Valentines Day was created for men to butter up and make their boo feel all special so they could smash all crazy the next day lmao.

For the past two years when I woke up on Valentines Day the bridge for the song Valentines Day by Andre 3000 played in my head lol. This year I did'nt celebrate Valentines Day, although I had a few i just was'nt in the mood to be out. Honestly I beleive if you really like someone you wouldnt make them your valentine, thats just a one time thing.

America celebrates Valentines to produce revenue. SOOO much money is spent on Valentines Day. Restaurants,tellys,hair salons,nail salons,stores,jewelry stores, lingerie stores,flowershops, barbershops & on and on...just think about it... and honestly I would throw out a gift someone gave me on Valentines day lol. if you really liked me you'd get me a gift whenever. the typical gift consists of flowers,chocolate and cards; flowers die , i dont like chocolate and get thrown away. Give me somthing thats meaningful, take me to a special place, anything but the typical ;-]I dont even ask for much lol


Here's the sims version of andre 3000 video....btw when the hell is he dropping a new album, his last one [the love below] was a classic, i havent taken it out my stereo for a year deadass that shit real

Smh

The Grammys ain't shit

First rihanna ass had to get into a boxing match with cbreezy, like wtf bitch u let him hit u tht nigga is sum fake yack chubby nigga he don't even move that fast & you from the islands.. Last time I checked carribean chicks got it in cough Hollywood cough lol
And neyo lost best male performance =[
Swagger like us was mean... My moms thought my tv broke lol it coulda been better but it was cool
And then lil Wayne won rap album of the year. If I was at the grammys I woulda decked someone deadass carter 3 is not better than paper trail idcc don't get me wrong I been a Wayne fan, but cmonnnn lupe should won before Wayne! And lyrical content paper trail is reallll, ti has really grown as an artist and I respect him slot for that. Creativity Wayne gets that, he did sum wierd new ish on his tracks.. Butcomeonnnn
By juding them on the cover u kno tip album better! The album art is 3-d someone actually took scraps of paper to make that shit.... Paper trail.. Get it dummies...[ ima post the album art wen I get a chance] I'm like mad, not even cuz I lost money, that's nothing lol but all these award shows lately been bullshitttttt..... Step it up ppl gosh... I'm highly upset and dissapointed, paper trail best rap album of 2008 idc we can fight if u feel some type of wayyy

Prom Queen

first and foremost lil wayne did not learn how to play the guitar just for that song im tierd of hearing that! but wayne is back..& i like it alot! kinda feel like he channeling me in the song ...smh..lol... wayne doin his thing tho, dont front..listen to the lyrics, i had to hear it like 10 times before i could really listen

Freakk jointt

who knew lil cassie was such a fj..i saw it in her...the video intresting...od low budget, this is deff before they did the offical one tho..she is deff gorgeous tho big up to dude in the video lol

r.i.p. Aaliyah

yo if she was still alive the r&b game would not be like it is now...she was one singer who was alwaysss on point...for some reason the start of this video remind me of distubia...but back to aaliyah..the crazy thing about her death is that she didnt even want to get on that plane, she wanted to get on the plane with the rest of her crew or sum ish like that, but damn...she was badddd and she had flow..yall kno jay was on that right

never ever

ciara...she my girl...i liked her since goodies..she jsut be on some other ish...but the video okya..her makeup aint lookin too good & her hair..she was workin it tho lol....monica in it..wonder when she droppin her next album...the song is hot tho. she just need to step her game up, new song writers or sumthin, she seem off.

& the winner is.....

bey with her 5 grammys in one night!

So I was looking at the Grammy Nominees.... Not too shabby, but some winners are a dead giveaway...but here's what I think

• Best rap album- paper trail by ti, the carter 3 was okay, I didn't even buy it tho, I just downloaded it. I actually purchased paper trail, and the album before that [ I lent it to someone soon as I got it & they lost it lol] ti had some bangers tho... porno star, swing ya rag, you ain't missing nothin, live your life, dead & gone,whatever you like... All that good ishh. & I can't even name a song where he degrades women, I'm sure one exists, but his lyrics aren't based on sexually explict actions that some women choose to participate in. My money on tip for that category.

• Album of the year- carter 3 by lil Wayne. It wasn't the best rap album but it was a good album. I've been anticipating it since what...07? Yeaa. Sumthin like that,been a Wayne fan. Carter 2 is mean, carter 3 had so much hype about it. Wayne was pumping that release for a minute, and that's what made it so popular in the hip hop industry, and when he came out with lolipop he showed he was ready to takeover. I first heard it 3-14-08 and listened to it the wholeee time I was in vegas. The a milli beat kept ppl hypee my moms even knew the words to that. Mr carter was meann wayne was blackin.. Comfortable was real,I dug itt and that got money was a club anthem for a min. Wayne did his thing... A milli in a week... The nigga deserve the Grammy for that


• record of the year -PAPER PLANES! That's not even a new song... That's from 06 or 07. I been fckn with mia.If she doesn't win she should blow up the Grammys lol. But really she should win that, so many rappers re did it they own way cuz the beat was bannanas, they even samples her for the hook of swagger like us.. Where the raps industrys " best rappers" alll went in. Ti blacked tho.. The song has also been features in manyyy a box office hits, I mean... I never ever seen or heard a song in so many places from bollywood, to Hollywood, to the a..& rich boy blackeddd on the remix... Yea she gotta win that..

best new artist- duffy or jamine sullivan. herd duffy album, i loved it, her music does not relfect her apperance at all,thats what made me intrested in her. i saw her thought she was the next britney...blond haired pop star, but that voice..wow..and her lyrics..real..warwick ave is my shitt....jasmine sulliva seem cool...hated her first songle, 2nd and 3rd is hot. but i bet the jonas brothers goin win...smh..i personally dont really like em

Best pop vocal performances: closer for neyo, i loveddddd that song!! i didt hear his whole album tho, i aint hear too many good things either, but his singles are hot...bleeding love by lenoa lewis for female, shes wassup, i like her music, somthing diff...

best pop collabo- you already kno my money on rihanna... her n marroon for never see your face again... the video was hot song was hot...but 4minutes mightt just take the grammy home for that category...

best rap performace- hassss to be put on... swagger like us..maybe even mr.carter....thats a hard category..but im goin with put of by jeezy n kanye

those are just the categories i really wanna see...anyhin else i dnt rlly care.... hope rihanna win somethin ,maybe sumthin for distubia & kanye..he gotta win somthin!!!