Tash TuCute!

yes yes Tash TuCute [pronounced too-cute]lol is bout to get in the booth. I am very very excited about this because her song is hot. The name for is as of now is " you missin something. Shit is real.the lyrics are based on experinence,opinion and facts. If u feel some type a way when you hear it, I want you to feel free to perosnally SMD. The saga has begun [ evil laughter from a deep male voice] lol

F#(K 2008

my end of the year 2008 was terrible.... Mishap after mishap after mishap after mishap again. Me & my parents bck at it again, got nothing I wanted for Xmas,i lost a total of $75 dollars( whoever found that 50 is happy as hell) butterfly blue closed =[ that made me of sad. I spent sooo much time there, I used to work crazy ass hours like 3pm to 3 am lol I got paid real gooood but I dont really have nothing to prove from it bcuz I spent my money on bullshit lol damn yo I aint worked there since June tho, I still remeber that last day like it was yesterday.. It was a hot ass sat, the sat after prom las year and I was mad tierd lol I had no sleep that week. I memebr stayin breaking night on tues to do a project I worked on weds got home at like 3am n the next day had to wake up madd early to get ready for prom n shit and prom I was exhauseted wen I got home but me shae n kay n jamari stayed up then we wnt to skool in the am n I had to go bac to skool after that then I went to see my brother in the hospital then I went to sum cream meeting lol then to hcz fashion show then I was hanging out with "Harlem ppl" then I ran to kelsie house cuz sum dude followed me for like 4 blocks I got home like 1030 n was on the comp tlkn to ppl =] lol and tori drunkass kept calling everyone lol I aint go to bed till like 2 ( damn aim lol) then I wokeup n had to b at wrk at 12 blah blah I was on the phone with kelZ she was at riverbank and tori she waswandering round Harlem blah blah I left wrk and was on 145 and that day I learned one armed hugs are no bueno lol and I thought I saw tash n it was her she was in the bankkk lol and I dont remebr the rest [ smh lol dont do drugs] but the nxt day I was in bed the wholee day lol damn I have a good memory the summer is always the best winters always the worst lol summer 09 dead put a grin on my face =D bye 08.....09 ive been waiting for you babe ; )

I dead wandered away from the topic lol

insomnia?

I can't sleep, my mind is bringing up flashbacks & thinkning of the future & shit. Whay has been, what is, what will be and what i want shit to be like....I barely got anysleep this week...I lay in bed everynight trying to go to sleep but it doesnt work. And when I do go to sleep I have some crazy ass dreams. Random ppl, but today I realzied that these ppl are in my dreams for a reason.... Bout to go read a book...

[mocha]pocahantas

" I'm so serious my chest hurts"

it all started with checking my emails. I was cleaning out my inbox and I came across an old conversation. Well three to be approxiamte. And then I though back. Of how carefree and genuine our conversations used to be.


Then came the shortness of breath...
increase in pulse....
tightening of the chest......
It was heartache.

What bothers me the most is, how can you have heartache for someone you don't even talk to, don't even trust, don't even know, don't even love ?

I kno there is one simple answer tied to these complex emotions, but it can't be happneing to me... Na not me

random....

I love kelsie Bonaparte she really has impacted my life like od I really love her

Mad random

Today I was at grand central & I was by the 7 train. The first and last time I took that shit was when I was in 9th grade and me her miguel and Anthony were going to a baseball game. After that I just started thinkning bout all the times we hung out...wall st..14st lol...135? I think and man o man we had some real good times together..... Q train anyone?na better yet the 5,or 3, shit even the lirr ....lol chill daddy.... :-p

Enna iort pocahantas

Cry

My lil cuzzo sed in a poem what resides in my heart, has flowed out of my eyes, in the form of tears & now that they've dried I see shit clear

that shit was deep and sometimes its true, only crying can make things better sometimes. But I hate to cry. Hate it hate it HATE IT. Seems like with tears there is only more drama to come. Which leads me to the point of this here blog.... The song Cry by Rihanna.i feel like I can relate to that song 110%

" was it the moment that we first kissed/ becuase its killing me to let it go/
maybe becuase we spent so much time/ and now were no more/
I shoulda never let you hold baby/ maybe that's why I'm sad to see us apart/
I didnt give it to you on purpose/ can't figure out how you got in my heart"

[ I altered the words a bit to fit my current situation]
Basically the song goes on to talk about yea she got her heart broken, but she's not gunna let it get to her. & that's why I love the song becuase I wish I could have done that in the past.... Just let love go & call it a day... And I'm going to try to keep up that attitude but I can't even front... Ima certified SUCKER for love.... smh.... But that song, the message it portrays & kinda relfects my attitude: be emotionless or show subtle emotions... I'm gunna research who wrote that song, that shit is deep, it blows mine that all the shit by rihanna that I od love ain't written by her [ ie rehab,unfaithful, breaking dishes & a few more] and she stole her whole swag from kelis but that's life lol

Young bliss babe

" my mind is gone/ I'm spinning round/ and deep inside these tears I'll drown/
I'm losing grip/ what's happening? / I stray from love / this is how I feel"